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I close my eyes and I smile
Knowing that everything is alright
To the core
So close that door
Is this happening?
My breathe is on your hair
I'm unaware
That you opened the blinds and let the city in

A slow strangle with feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal

I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid the wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't even handle my own

How am I supposed to breathe?
I try to relax, I touch your still frame,
So I can watch you closer
And study the ways I believe I belong to you... to you, so I...
I scratch at your waist line, your doll hair,
I dig up the thought of how your eyes glow,
So I make you my religion, my collision, my escape goat.
So have I found your secret weak spot, baby?

I’m wishing the bath water clean
She hides in the back and is unseen
I take off the mask that surrounds me
Look me in the face
What do you see
I feel like a boy the age of 13
My body grows up
But my mind stays the same

I only note spending time away
I only note the truth is spoken
Best when brutally so honestly.
I' ll let you know you set
The standards lyrically for me
One single middle finger
Say raise it up
My speech will always be free

I haven't been quite the same
So sure the story of my life would never change
In a bright eyed way
Rinsed out the soap in my eyes and wrote a song that I'm about to sing
It's about a girl
That I hardly even know
It's not another love song
Just a list of things that I should know

I dreamt you seduced me
Just walked away
I dreamt you inspired
Then rewired what I say
I dreamt you spread your bottom wings
And pulled me to the bed
But then I woke up feeling nauseous
You danced around my head

Have you ever been so lonely
There's no one there to hold
Just pull me in or disown me
And then
Climb inside
My arms are open wide
Have a look inside

Close my eyes
Feel you sigh
A desperate aching wonder
Will you ever, ever let me off my knees?

Wide awake
Like a dream

Blue does
Everything I've never seen before
Blue does
Everything I've never seen before

She's the answer to the prayer I hadn't found
She's the answer to the silence, she's my sound
Oh what a girl

Blue skies
Calling on blue skies
Don't take them away boys
Don't take them away
'Cause I'll never stop

I've been to both knees
Raise my hands up to the sky, forgive me

I see your heart beat through the bedsheets
I feel your pulse against the floor
I sleep the sadness that no one else sleeps
Feel me cunningly adore.

As the tic tock clock lies Goldilocks
What a sick enchanted view
Of the white blot sin that we all began

I would be blown away
I could be their everyone
I could be there everyday
If I could be good enough
Then I could just glow ......
If I could let go
Then I could change the world
But I can't stop always tearing myself down .....

White kitchen walls
with a thousand windows
You turn on Winston
in the den
And I'm still asleep
but I can hear the piano
when you make
breakfast after 10

Theres something that i cant quite explain
i'm so in love with you
you'll never take that away

and if i said a hundred times before
expect a thousand more
you never take that away

I changed my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here there are the bruises
And some were self-inflicted
And some showed up along the way
So i nod my head
Im ready for the world to see

By the way
By your side I'll stay
If that's okay
Then by your side I'll stay forever
Here I am standing up
Because I want to fall in love with you

A sunless day

The first born, my heart will call Truly,
A god-like boy of the sky.
The fog hissed away like a movie,
And serpents go home for the night.
The thundercloud rain hits the freeway.
The clowns put on makeup for show.
The nightfall, my skin crawl kind of evening.
And how the wind she blows.

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something

He's scared
Her ship arrived and came in yesterday
The darkest side of Houston's finest day
You fell alseep, my love
And i fantasize
That the wind blew harder than it ever did
This song we started, will it ever end
You fell alseep again

A fresh start
Let me walk around your ball park
A fever we can learn from
Now just breathe it in
It's ok
To want
To have
To take

I'm like a ghost
I'll be living in a dirt room
Waiting for the day to be closer
To the window when you're home
I'll be standing by your back door
Reaching for the knife in my coat
I'm going to put it to your throat
Sweaty piggy, you're a bad man

Let me start with I’ve let you go
But you don't get it though
Politely i've asked you to leave
Put still you follow
(Why are you following me?..)

Its hard when you're full of heart
When the house you built just falls apart

I try to stay on top of you
To hold your body down
Your shaking seems to hinder
Every grap that I had found

Moving every inch around you
To defuse your private bomb
I stretch myself surrounding

I touch the tongue to see
A devil's face in front of me
I said man in front of me
You blow your nose then cried
And The clown demands a sad good-bye
I said man a sad good bye

Black below the tree

A heartbeat skip, relationship
Inside a bubble bath
An icing drip below your lip
So we undo the math
A sudden slip between
My pathetic sedatives
A real-life script of how
Mistakes became our medicine, so

You're simply saying everything if you will
Take a pen and write my name on a friend
Who never cared to let me in
And take a vast revine that for
Three years swimmin' straight upstream
And the wind...the wind won't drag me down the end

You live inside my wall and I

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl'in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
the way you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
the way you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

When you holler baby
When you holler at me
What you want me to be
When you holler baby
When you holler at me
What you want me to

I won't be strong and I won't be brave

I'll smile if I want to
I'm not afraid, gonna flaunt it too
What a glow when you're living true
Yeah

I'm living for the right now
I had a few friends show me how
I take a deep breath and blow it out

There will be days when you're falling down
There will be days when you're inside out
There will be days when you fall apart
Someone else will break you heart
They're never gonna hold you back
I'm always gonna have your back
So try to remember that

You always said that I would never find a better one
Well look at me I did that shit
Well come on now
Come on now

You always said that I would end up alone 
Well, look at me, I'm on top of the world
You were wrong now

I feel that it's hard enough to say goodbye.
I feel there's the water. Should I sink or dive?
An empty plate, fill up my sentimental morning star.
I steal the art of putting truth in a lie.
I still want the girl that reall caught my eye.
But, she lives in Oklahoma City, far away from me.
An empty hope chest.
I quit the dope quest,

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest, I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim

I ended the book that I'm writing.
The part about you I'm tearing it out.
A simple goodnight, stop fighting,
There's nothing left to even read about.
I'm leaving you here my darling,
to search for a better and easy way out.
Through all of the pain that I'm causing,
There's nothing left to even sing about

Kneel down
Close your eyes
hit the ground
I want you to, to kneel all day
alone in this desolate cave
So I said
Scream if you want to
Cause no one is around

Remember how you used to say
You couldn't wait till tomorrow
for a brand new day and
No fuss when ya had to ride the bus
You just add a little blush
To paralyze your school crush

Now you're older and the weight is on your shoulder

Losing my control
Here it is the day I have to go
Just sit beside me
I can't let this show
How sick I feel to leave you so alone
God I'm terrified

We've lost respect for decency

Follow your heart
Follow your feet, your soul
Follow your dreams wherever they go
And never slow down
And find someone to share within
And then never let them go

Hold me close, closer than ever before

Where do you go
When the day is long?
And where does your heart beat
And who is wrong?

Why do I feel this way?
Why do I kneel?
How could I let it go?

Writing on a cup of coffee
As she waits my table
And she smiles when able
from the inside

And who would've thought a cup of coffee
Would make my legs unstable
Shaking

Will you think of me in time
It's never my luck
So nevermind
I wanna say your name
But the pain starts again
It's never my luck
So nevermind

I know how to let you leave
How am I suppose to let you go?
Now you stand in front of me
And all the rain is turning into snow

Can you tell me that you're real
So I can really know
That everything I feel I can finally show

You have black hair I have blue
You look sadder than most girls do
The way you walk around
Always watching the ground
Well I like watching you

Your friends, they don't like me
I think they're jealous of my tattoos

I really need to talk with you
I keep stepping on the vein
That keeps my lifeline flowing thru
I wanna be your perfect stick of glue
But I don’t feel perfect at all
Sad and insecure flaw

I find it hard hold conversations

Одиноко стою босиком на нашей лужайке,
Черви проползают между пальцами -
Вот такой вечер.
Я тихо стою на коленях под твоим окном,
Я думал, что, по крайней мере, я, возможно, достучусь до твоего разума,
Достучусь до твоего сердца,
«Отпусти его»

Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes
Lessons learned then gradually surfacing
Letting go, stripping naked to scream
I am not perfect, nor do I strive to be
I am alive in this world of face-first falls and public breakdowns
I'm a retarded, disfigured clown
Dying to be heard for the simple art of letting this heavy wall finally fall
I'm an equal being of no race or color

It's all about steam
It's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when your fine
Cause you'll talk like a mime

You'll fall on your face
You get back up and you're doing fine

It's all about steam
It's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when your fine cause you talk like mime
You fall on your face get back up and you're doing fine
I consider it the clown punching preaching machine
There's one of the sweetest things she would say about me
That I don't have the time you fucked up the steam

A silver plated numbing gum
And Jesus resting on my thumb
A hard to reach malaria
I've got the mood that seems to scare ya.
I'm paranoid, self destroyed.
Believe me lord I'm sorry
I've got the mood that seems to bury ya
I've got the nightmare called...

We talked
Together sharpening the knife
Like killing partners for a life
Hey we can hide the bodies on the ride home

Now here we are
We're licking skin to wipe us clean
Strike a match, pour gasoline

Stop staring, you’re the reason I feel so unhappy all the time
I’ve given you everything I know how
Your standing on the top of my shoe
keeping me from gaining ground
I’m sorry if you feel like I let you down

Can you tell me what have I done so wrong
To you

I take a spiritual drive
Down by the coast of her eyes
I keep seeing cowboys ride by
Indian style
She's twisted, fumbling by
She scratches paint off my sky
Whenever feelings run dry
I just go hide

Somewhere, far away from here
I saw stars, stars that I could reach (yeah)
It was a midnight, a silent twilight
Fell down, beyond the ocean beach (yeah)

I assemble all the sand that cover wedding beaches
To build a castle so your mom would have a place to stay
Behind the water slide and down the hill where heaven reaches

The 21st. comes so soon every month
An anniversary of not being strong enough
You're much too co-dependent
A shrink is recommended

Your father tells you to try to be responsable
Your mother loves you, but not the way she did before
Your brother's torn to pieces

If I can't crawl inside of you
I'm laughing with a broken face
I stumble across my self esteem
But to picture the pleasure is making me want my space

Understand
That God wrapped you like a bow
But in my head

Take my hand,
Maybe we should run away,
Maybe we should disappear,
Leave everything behind.

Like the useless things,
Boxes labeled memories,
The sudden health emergencies,

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn,
Worms squeezing their way through my toes
Tonight that’s how it goes.
I’m at your window kneeling quiet,
I thought at least I’d maybe try to get your head right
Get your heart right
“Let him go!”

Pride
It leaves you hollow
Another attempt
Just to settle the score
A war, you know the one you built it up

It’s real defining
Humiliation

I tried and tried
I tried so many things that wouldn't take
Like stop the leak, prevent the flood, some say
But nothing helped at all

And you're not listening to what I say
You waste the time for memories made
Communication has not made its way to your agenda for today

Away she goes dancing
In her red and green bow .
It always stops my heart .
Like reindeer she's prancing in white winter snow
It always stops my heart
We're moving further apart .

Is she getting me a paperback book

Let's get it straight
Let's get it straight from the top
You're beginning with the usual main ingredient
You're good at talking when you say it
Are you meaning it?
Don't wanna give you my heart if you're not completing it

I'm blown away at how your family, your friends,

I'd like to sneak around your house
When everyone's asleep
Tiptoe across the door-room mat
That used to welcome me
Then gently shut the door
To see a brand-new Christmas tree
And the silence pounds like a kettle drum
And a chill runs through me

I'm tired and twisted
Barely breathing buried in the dark....i coulda been
Don't be concerned that's just the power
Of a breaking heart
How good am i hiding it?

Look i got some bad intentions
Guilty as fuckin' charged

[Verse 1]
Look forward to the breakdown
Pay attention to the worst
The uneducated fail rate
'Cause they said this wouldn't hurt

[Chorus]
Time changes everything

A walk like a burned out porn star
With aching feet for a car
My buddy had a baby with a girl named star
Makes me appreciate how the little things are

But crossing a road isn't easily told
To a young has-been centerfold
Labelled a winner's episode

some kind of light
at the end
when touching
the edge of her skin

once so hard to speak
now so easy to play around
catching your eye you know

I must have sneezed
On knees I freeze
I mean I just choked up
Somehow I slept

I dream, I mean
I dreamt of nothing
Able to breathe

Light the fire in this castle
Watch it burn into a glow
By the river fear of quite sincere
There’s a draw bridge life support.
There’s a plank we’ll have to crawl upon
But dare not look below
Where the water scene is crystal clean
Where the clouds are raining snow

My weaknesses
With their ugly faces
on a day to day basis
Stay calm and try to see this
I’m always sensitive relaxing
Always delicately asking
But I can’t seem to fly away
Felling dull, small, shaking and all

I black out in the room again
Busted lip and broken skin
I wake up in the bathroom
And dare not bother asking
Why the mirror's cracked and all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me

This voice is there to dare me

What if we could
Put our lives on?
Hold and meet some
Where inside of the world,
I would meet you.
Would you meet me?

2, 3, 4...

Relapse
Prevent trigger intent
Now drown
High strung
Say X amount of words

You're solar, bipolar
Panic disorder

Relapse
Prevent trigger intent
Now drown
High strung
Say X amount of words

You're solar, bipolar
Panic disorder

Some kind of light
at the end
I'm touching
the edge of her skin

Once so hard to speak
Now so easy to play around
Catching your eye you know

Did he really get to take you home?
I'm surprised that you chose....( him )
Surprised that I'm not in a halfway home
I'm not surprised I never saw you around.....

When they brought me home

So who does this separation work for?

It's all about steam
It's all about dreams
It's all about making the best out of everything
You'll know when your fine
Cause you'll talk like a mime

You'll fall on your face
You get back up and you're doing fine