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It was 33 years ago, it’s not that easy to say in detail what I thought or how I thought. It was written 33 years ago Bo.
Your colleagues, the people you knew, did they reason in the same way?
Yeah well, there were never, I mean they’ve been aware when they sent in all their writing with every application and procedure. There were never any critique against… well I think everybody thought it was rather obvious. Everybody thought it was all certainties. Yeah…. You’re holding that thing (mic), when I’ve stopped as if you thought there would be more, but there’s not.

You’re a bit too fixed for a normal mechanism, this is difficult to express, but you reason as if today’s way of thinking was the only obvious one. It’s somehow too easy to take for granted that today’s ways of thinking are the only ones. Can you understand what I mean? No, you couldn’t.

I’m sure it was a routine, routine cases for them. And I can’t imagine a medical officer of health who goes home and cries over making the decision to sterilise someone. Or sterilisation terms. No, your way of thinking is a bit foreign to me I’m afraid.

Reject the dream to wake upon beyond the rise and prosper
Despite the end of lights this filth has shown as seldom hostile

Behold my eyes will soar unseen the childs whos needs will follow
Unfold my rights applied by them who hold my judge this knife my halo

Deceptive consistency braced by us
Demons that lurks here within

Female voice 1: We were going to your place to pick up some clothes and stuff. So we were walking and walking and went to the grocery store to get bread and grapes. I watched you cross the street and you were... sort of not paying attention to things around you. I got a bit worried. Then we went up to the apartment and you unlocked the door and then...that thing happened. You started running through the apartment and I just felt that was a strange thing to do, to just start running out the apartment like that. So i dropped whatever was in my hands and chased after you. You opened the window and were standing on your knees on the windowsill; we were several floor up and I managed to grab the waist of your jeans and pull you back in. Then we started fighting. Yes, it was terrible. You ran back into the kitchen and was about to open the other window. The fridge just about fell on us, but in some mysterious way I managed to hold you down and dial 911... And so the police arrived and they wanted you to come with them. Their car was just outside and we all went to Katarina. Afterwards I was assigned to speak to a psychologist, and I just remember being so happy, so glad. It didn't even cross my mind that it could happen again, just that I had been physically strong enough to manage you. Then, of course, I got worried. I was so freaking scared if that window, you know.

Unravel their deeds so that we may ingest the sun
We shall not fear this darkness our moon will guide us from
Their soul feeds our alchemy of our philosophers stone
Redeem our kingdom redeem may they crumble their throne
Redeem us

Deny me
for My deeds

Have you gotten the papers now? It must say that I’m retarded.
It says horrible things.
It does? Maybe I’ll get angry?
Yes I can imagine you could be.
The doctor and one a headmistress applied to get you sterilised. This is your dad’s insert…

When the light shines on us all the flaws start to show
Won’t you make me a promise to keep your eyes closed

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Female voice 1: Yeah, well, the ups and downs were insane, it could vary within an hour. Just like that it could change. I think most of the time I thought it must be very hard for you, since your state of mind could change so fast, like in every change you would... yeah, that it was just an amazing capability out of this world to turn like that somehow.

Female voice 3: I go in and out of the hospital. The fall and winter just disappears. Spring comes again, and summer, then fall. I manage to get to the phone one night and I call a night-open bakery, order cinnamon buns for the whole ward. At home, in the ward, at mom's place. Nothing works. I haven't payed my bills in months. A nurse takes me to the welfare authorities. Installment plants, cause of 'special circumstances". They try to cheer me up by saying I did once live a functioning life. It is like they're talking about someone else.

I have a family now, soon to be my second child. I am the one they should always be able to trust. I know what it is like to have a parent that suddenly changes. I know what that does to you, how you always have to on your toes. How you always have to analyze each situation and be prepared for disaster to hit. But what if you, yourself, are that disaster?

January 1st, 2001, my last day at Katarinahuset. I started therapy. A friend moves in with me. I got a contact at the hospital a while a back; someone I report back to and just talk to. I don't really have those ups and downs anymore; mostly just downs. I live at home and I am afraid of going out. I go jogging with my contact at the hopital once a week in the Hellas area, he picks me up with his car. Sometimes he brings his dog. I've started employment training, a measure to get me back to normal life, as a tutor in a school for a few hours a day. A year goes by, but I still see my contact weekly. We have coffee or go jogging. I study part-time at the university. I get a scholarship and go to Gotland to write, but I mostly just take long walks and go to the local pool. Karle-Ove calls me, he says he is moving to Stockholm for a while. Asks me if we can meet when I get back. It makes me happy; I spend the rest of the day thinking about him.

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Female voice 3: Summer of '99. I'm doing well. I go to the movies. Meet friends. Eat breakfast in bed. A lot of stuff in going on, I got my first book published. Started a new job with the city theater. I'm going to Japan this fall to receive a prize for my poetry. I am 26 and full of plans. But none of that is going to happen. Something completely different is.

Male and female vocalists: will I never forget [x several times]

Female voice 2: he didn't ask you to describe those insane days. Yes, he did ask if you were suicidal, just like that,.and that was nearly 30 seconds into the conversation I think. You said you weren't. But you wanted to stay there--get help. I said that I couldn't take care of you, they needed to a**ist me. So you got sleeping pills and they said that you could now return home as Linda. They sort of returned you to me. So we went to my place and I think I made you spinach soup. I sorta fed you, but anyway, you got food and you got your pill and about an hour passed and then you panicked, said you were about to die. Your heart was racing and you were really scared, said the doctors were trying to kill you. You broke down and screamed, sitting on my bed, screaming that you would die.

Male voice: 91021 notes of check-in. Cause of check-in: possible manic depression. During the last year the patient has experienced periods of bipolar disease, lack of judgment and sleep deprivation with passive-aggression to follow. During the entire session the patient seems to have trouble finding words, showing slow reactions to questions. Emotionally shut down the entire session; very unemotional facial expressions.