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I don’t believe in god but recently I’ve been praying
I don’t expect and answer but it’s just a little comforting
See I’m not afraid to tell the truth cause I know you’re not listening
But the truth is, man, I’m really struggling

You see there’s thoughts in my head I never thought I would have
I mean, what if I wasn’t here, maybe they’d all be glad
See I don’t think anyone would mind because I’ve become such a burden

See when your young there’s a connection
From a mother to a son
And that mother, she’s the light
And she carries you on
See she’ll pick you up
And she’ll keep you clean
She’ll show you the love you so desperately need
So at no point do you think she could ever leave

I don’t know what to think
I don’t know how to feel
All I know is that I don’t feel like I’m really here
Maybe in body
But not in soul
Maybe when I grow up, maybe when I get old
But to be fair the seasons growing cold
And I’m watching leaves from the trees falling to the floor

Weʼre running out of time
Weʼve crossed the line
And I know I said Iʼd think about it but I canʼt seem to feel
Feel how I used to feel
Iʼm just scared to say goodnight
And sweet dreams till the sunrise
‘Cause what if the sun donʼt shine?
I canʼt know what that feels like

Itʼs just a week and I could change my ways
Iʼve been taking these pills for all my days
But nothing changes if you canʼt take a leap of faith
Itʼs just a couple days, itʼs just a couple days
And I can hold myself accountable
But this chemical imbalance makes me vulnerable and Iʼm scared
So used to feeling cold that when the warmth hits itʼs too much to control but like I
said

This is getting old
FUCK WHAT THEY BELIEVE IN
STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF
This is your own path of choice
Don't let them drag you in

I've heard this all before
Preaching like there's no tomorrow

I’ve just opened my eyes to the light that’s shining through my window
Today I’m 25 years old and that feels so wrong
There’s a ringing in my ear, my stomachs sick and it just feels
Like I don’t know what I’m doing here

Another
Hungover
Waste of my whole day

Now before I say these words I know they sound cliché
But unfortunately that, well that’s just me
You see I haven’t had an original thought in so damn long
I even took these words from someone else’s song

They say the times they are a-changin’
But I remain the same
Just a figure in the distance

I’ve been trying to come to terms with the loss of my youth
I know it’s something I’ll have to get used to
But when I look at myself in the mirror
The reflection is not me

It’s all the signs that scare me
All the cracks that appeared in my skin
It’s all the signs that scare me

I guess youʼll never agree ‘cause youʼll never understand
Times change, and we grow, at your age Iʼd expect you to know more
And you donʼt treat me so well, are you ashamed of yourself?
I think Iʼve been holding on too long Iʼm sick of dwelling on…
They say that blood is thicker than water
But I donʼt know if thatʼs so true
I think Iʼd drown much quicker
If I didnʼt have you

I gave up all my friends, my family, my whole life
Just to feel like I was moving forward
Just to feel alive

These memories mean more than love to me
At least that’s what the people closest to me started to believe

I watched as people I held dear

Oh man itʼs been so long
Living out the sorrows that I put in these songs
And if youʼve listened before youʼll see, itʼs always sad, sad stories from me
But I promised myself, I would try my best to get better
Iʼd take shelter from the storm and get out from being trapped under the weather
But thatʼs the thing with rain, it always comes when youʼre in the wrong place
And you can try to hide from the thunder, but when you hear it itʼll drag you back
under

So as the flowers begin to blossom
I feel myself coming out of the costume
That I dawned last halloween
I feel the winter months are so mean to me
And I reflect it in every scene that I play
Spend my nights alone and pray that in the morning I see rays of sunshine amongst
the grey
But all I get is just more rainy days

I am tired
Alone again
Dreaming of times that were better spent
A time where I could rest my eyes
And fall asleep without drinking myself blind

I’ll keep these thoughts so close
Cause they’re all that I have left

I'm not a strong man
Both in the physical sense and my mental health
See I struggle coping with a fear, a fear of death
I shake, my eyes well
I'm not scared of heaven, not scared of hell
I'm just terrified of not being here

Now I know this sounds messed up but there's times I feel like ending it all

Ladies and gentlemen please listen to my voice
Let it vibrate through your ears and let it shiver through your bones
Cause what I have to say is gonna make you feel alone
But once you understand it'll make you feel at home

You see a wise man told me you'd care a lot less about what people think of you when you realise how seldom they do

Now let me explain

Iʼm so sick of always hiding the truth
We all know someone who has dealt with abuse
And thereʼs no way we can let it slide
Oh hey, whatʼs that another bruise to hide?
Oh itʼs nothing, I just fell, and if I talk they could spend the night in the cells
And when they get out thereʼs a price on my head, Iʼll take a few small knocks not to
end up dead
So let me tell you loveʼs a dangerous thing

My life is slipping away from me
I wish that I could find some kind of piece of mind
What’s happening?
Why is my heart racing?
I feel like I could die but I’d best stay quiet

I’d best stay silent
No don’t show any weakness