... Who Calls So Loud все тексты (слова) песен, переводы, видео, клипы

the witching hour was especially cold last night. darkness hovers over as i lay wide awake. my chest gets tighter. my jaw locks. is this why my mother prays for me? there was a presence. as her hands rise. my mind can make this real. i scream internally. her eyes swell to release tears cried for the soul of her only son. i feel each one as i lay frightened. the shadows are alive. i think i can see them move.

you'd never know i existed in your world. no photos left, no words. a lost city with no relics to uncover. no one else could know. how could they? you have no visible scaring. it was convenience. it was abuse. written at daybreak. i shook the whole walk over. written at daybreak. this note pinched. index to thumb. middle for support. i would never in my life drop this. to do so would be like dropping my own heart. it’s been years since I’ve stood on your porch. several memories flash all at once. I don’t even know if you still live here. attached is everything you’ve written me. i’ve highlighted all of the lies. enjoy. attached are these lies.

foundation doesn't mask bruises anymore. "we're in love." i tell my friends. stitches bust open. the skin hasn't fused yet. leave me on the bathroom floor bound with duct tape. underneath the sink. you might as well have. i saw stars in the shape of an arrow in the sky one night. they were pointing me away from here. you're so sorry, you cry and i pet your hair. i know this isn't the last time. i am afraid of you. nobody knows you the way i do. they don't know how i feel. this violence has consumed me. how far will you go? smother me! i can't breathe through the pillow.

i have only tasted the residue left over from my past lives. this violent hunger. here, i can never get my fill. instances flash in my sleep. i see it months later. i haven't the slightest idea why. someone is following me. haunting me. i am no longer afraid. i can never explain myself. this stuttering mess i am. it's time to leave. will you come with me? lets get out of here. we can start new lives. we could lives like kings. life here is stale. we will care for each other. and for once chase the beauty of this land. this discontent has become a beast. i need you there. our hearts beat in unison. leave your glasses home. i will be your eyes. i'll leave my tongue because yours is the sharpest i know.

mornings are so cold. this air is thick. it's almost later. here empty hearts harbor. they left home. they left their selves at home. these filthy streets littered with the corpses of the rejected. we step over them and keep walking. we have no choice. after sunset you wade through sin. neon sex and invisible precipice. there is no safety here. and that's why you love this place. i left home. i left myself at home. this city's charm is eroding away. i can also say the same thing about myself. i was stuck there. but now i'm lost here i feel like i have blinders on. i make my way to sleep and to slavery. peripherals disabled. i am finally home.

this first step taken. with every ounce of my spirit. will prove once and for all that you don't exist. a crutch i cry, a crutch. you and i are one. this whole time i had such a firm grasp on myself. i needed to call it something. i made myself accountable to strangers. i forgot myself. i have lost myself. you kept me from self-destruction. you kept me from growth. i have once again outgrown myself. where do i go from here?

just as leafless trees are the nerve endings of the earth and streets are like paved veins. we walk down like blood cells. fold. all the scraps of paper folded in my pockets. writings, just words that do nothing anymore. vague and mistaken by all. i am left in this room with only thought. i lay on the floor and stare into the ceiling. into infinity. i dream of years from now. years which were never promised to me. i don't see anyone i know through the storm and chaos. the eye is always so calm. a year before i would have fallen apart. but not today. not anymore.