- 1984
I'm dead inside and dying more everyday
Castrate my eyes and cut the lines in my face
The alcohol the empty walls regress regress erase regret
Return me now to where I was long ago
Yeah Yeah Yeah
I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
- 34
How long?
How long will I have to go on?
When I'm with you.
Take a gun to my head, swallow it!
I hope you're on the way,
To an early grave,
Nothing left to change.
- All-Star Me
This isn't the way we planned
I wasn't supposed to forget your taste
Like nights spent figuring all the ways that we came to this place
There we were alone on top of your old rooftop in Highland Park
But ask me now
Say, "Chris look out across the sky and tell me which way the wind blows."
A core of coal
- Anywhere with you
I know i can't come near you
Every time i do
I get shaken inside and the sun in my eyes
I'll stay away
I'd rather be here
than anywhere with you
Whoo
- At Your Funeral
This song will become the anthem of your underground.
You're two floors down getting high in my back room.
If I flooded out your house, do you think you'd make it out,
or would you burn up before the water filled your lungs?
And at your funeral I will sing the requiem.
This song will become the anthem of your underground.
You're two floors down getting high in my back room.
If I flooded out your house, do you think you'd make it out,
- Blindfolded
So now I've made the decision to walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life and I'll never show my face again because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough and I don't have the right stuff - all I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart and I think that tonight I will sneak into your house and I'll sing songs and wake you up and I'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges and you'll say you don't want want to be with me 'cause no one ver does and no one ever thinks of me that way but I will even drive you home if you never let me forget about you and if you promise me that I'm good enough for someone 'cause I've got to be good enough for you and someday soon I'll get it right and then you'll see just how good I can be so don't ask me about forever because right now I'm feeling lost but there's got to be a place for me because if there isn't where will I go? will there be some place for me and will you be there waiting for me? if and when we get there please catch me before I crawl all the way home but I won't stop until you do.
- Can't Stay The Same
Go if you wanna go
Don’t wanna lie here while you cry yourself to sleep
And say what you wanna say
Cause I can see by your face that somethings not the same
Hey, hey everything’s okay
I love you more than I can say
But we can’t stay the same
- Cars And Calories
Her life was magazines,
and faithful TV screens
selling an empty dream
of cars and calories,
everything in between
the sun and Saturn's ring,
the price tag can't be seen.
- Delusional
They're at the house
They're breaking down the doors
They came to kill us all
There's no way out
All night I dream that they're really out to get me
The lines on my face are getting deeper every day
- Diseased
Walking down the hall but all the doors are locked inside
Searching for somebody just to stay with for the night
Please, help me, please
I let my heart go
I'm dead, I'm diseased
I'll drain my life of sorrow
- Do You Know What I Love The Most
Do you know what I love the most?
Even suburbs would be ok
With you beneath my sheets;
breeze in my window
'Cause we will go there, ignore all our neighbors
I think I'll bring you breakfast, play Johnny Cash on the stereo
I'll sit in the lazy chair all day remembering the things you do
So when you come home
- Don't Know Why
There must be something wrong with me.
I get so tired, I can't sleep.
The voices in my head are haunting my dreams.
No matter how I try,
To kill the thoughts inside.
I cannot, I cannot, hide.
The mirror staring back at me.
- Eulogy
"Eulogy"
I see your eyes in my mind
but the moment fades slips away
and when I wake I curse the day
when I torch the sky see it falling in flames
I'd burn up to see you again
- Freakish
As I'm talking my words slip to the floor
and they crawl through your legs and slide under the back door
rendering me freakish and dazed.
Well here I am. Don't know how to say this.
Only thing I know is awkward silence.
Your eyelids close when you're around me to shut me out.
So I'll go walking in the streets 'til my heels bleed
and I'll sing out my song in case the birds wish to sing along.
- Get Fucked Up
Watching the moon moving to the ocean floor
Standing on the neighbor's lawn
It's four am on Friday
All night long I'm dreaming of your loving arms
I'm staring at the fading stars
And waiting for your call
But every time I think about you
- Getaway
I don't need nobody, not at all
'Cause I'm going to end it all in the light at the break of dawn
And I don't why or what went wrong
I'm tired of trying to pretend to believe that I can go on
The pain won't let me get away
And now I know we'll never be the same
I don't want to live, not another day
- Head For The Hills
"Head For The Hills"
Burning a door in the back of my mind
Lying alone in the morning
I feel like swallowing my eyes
I walk around the house until
My feet begin to bleed
Still I can't forget somehow
- Hold
Oh well, you've got me under your spell
and I don't think that I'm kidding around.
I don't think I can forget you now.
I once sat up on my roof and examined the planning of my town.
I saw the structured grid and pavement cutting through grass
and I remembered the cold of winter running up the legs of my pants.
I picked the nicest lawn and imagined the two of us
rolling around down along the ground.
- Holly Hox, Forget Me Nots
Somewhere under water maybe you could find my heart
'Cause that's where I threw it after you had torn it out
Three days ago
The doctor told me, "Every skyline and every night spent alone
Are tearing you apart."
Maybe I should get some help
Maybe I should fly out to Montana
I've heard it's quite quiet way out past the electric lines
- I'm Sorry I'm Leaving
Your middle finger was clutching my thumb through the park
and over macdougal.
The torches were blazing about our street and just down from the sky.
Casey stepped with Anna off the curb.
His shoes are clogs, did you see?
They dipped in that puddle, the one catching green.
They were tripping up and slipping around,
singing 'Rolalita come out tonight' and oh I wanted to pull you down.
- In My Waking Life
Im never in my waking life
dreaming is my all the time
whether its the weather
or my mind its all too much
callin' in the fridged wind
a whisper is my dearest friend
leading me along a lily-laden twisting trail
- Lucky Number
In the night when you're alone
In the dark and the unknown
You can always come back here
I'm home
No lucky number or save the date
No way to know when it will change
No invitation or long lost friend
- Monkey
Hello me
Are you in there
Making sure you're not dead,
Smelled some rotting flesh
I heard you left him alone
Suns up with open roads
Get down
- nightingale
And I will flail under these lights,
that seep down from the bitter sky tonight
and I will kick and beat my wrists together
and feel an ocean breathing waves, feel them licking at my face.
Ceilings don't exist and there are no floors beneath me.
If I were king of this night, would you become my queen?
- Rocks Tonic Juice Magic
Let me take this awkward saw
And run it against your thighs
Cut some flesh away
I'll carry this piece of you with me
Because all I can say tonight
is that I hate you
But it would be all right
- Say You'll Never Leave
Hammer nails into my eyes
now I'll never notice
when you're staring at the ground
wishing that you didn't know
what I'm really thinking
you won't even look at me now
Say you'll never leave, please
- See You
My gut is burning. Won't you find me some water?
Hey, just forget it can you bring me gasoline
And collect a couple forks, hold them three feet apart
And wait for lightning to strike to burn me up?
Cause I don't think that I've got the stomach to
Stomach calling you today.
My head is swirling. It's been carried off in the sky
And where it lands is where is lands.
- Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off to Heaven
There's a beautiful sky tonight and
if you were by my side then we could share it but your gone.
So come at me with your moon and burn me in the stars
cause nothing matters anymore.
If I could only see you now for about an hour
maybe just a minute
just to ask
What has he got that I don't have?
- Sonic Reducer
I don't need anyone
Don't need no mom and dad
Don't need no pretty face
Don't need no human race
I got some news for you
Don't even need you too
I got my time machine
- The End
Cut off my pair of limbs
Put off what's left within
When I'm limited
Time to face the end
Smile for the camera, suck in that gut
Don't shame your family, you'll have bad luck
Oh the whole world is waiting to see when you fall
Cracked coffee cup from the senior prom
- third engine
the sky grows bigger every day
and the the other week i hop'd on a train
cutting through state lines
to come to you as the crow flies
out there in the offin' everything was melon and orange
did you know, my sweet
yeah, that i once took the liberty of wathing you in your sleep?
- three miles down
Oh great
here I go again I'm stuck in this rut
and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything?
I'm feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me-
if this is the last thing you do just tell me that it's o.k.
for me to have these feelings for you
and that it's normal to want to call you.
- Through Being Cool
You know what?
The next time you see Nick
Tell him I'm gonna stick some needles in his face
And watch him on his knees
Watch him when he sees that I'm not fooling
'Cause I'm through being cool
And he keeps telling everyone about me
- Under The Boards
I want to crawl into the ground and not come out
For 37 years, when my life runs out
A demon in my mouth that spits words out
Let everybody hate me, make me kill myself
I want to lie below the weight of the sky
And then I'll rise above the earth in a hurricane
- Undress Me
All I want is you to come undress me
Laying sideways underneath the windowsill
Let's not say a thing, no, let's not even think
Just hold each other here
I remember when we met on halloween
You and your red dress, your green eyes stared at me
The sidewalk yellow stars start t0 fade into the dark
- Verona
After the end when he tells her he loves her
She promises not to let go
They hold on to hope
It all begins with the end
Everything started within
One or two seconds of a siren
Sounding over city limits singing